Decorating/Landscaping Craziness

Well, my husband and I are in full finish decorating mode. We want our house and landscaping to be done so we can maintain and just have a fun relaxing summer. :)
So, we have been so busy and quite frankly exhausted! Things are looking great!

We have undertaken the yard...we pretty much redid the whole thing. Retaining walls, rip out old grass, plant new grass, we poored cement steps and are planning to do exposed rock in the center. We still have to pour a cement path and stamp it, as well as build an arbor and add path liners and bark dust. We also are trying to freshen up the front door/lighting fixtures/posts and add some hanging baskets, plants, and a welcome sign. We recently decided our dog Jett(see pics below) deserves a kennel so we are trying to get that done next. :)

As for the inside we have the bedroom, bathroom, kitchen, office done. We are trying to finish the diningroom/living room. Which is taking the longest. I'm please to say Jeph has finished the hutch doors and giant entertainment center for our big screen. The last big projects!!! We are hoping to have all the little projects done in the next two weeks. By July 1 we hope to have our new leather couches/dining chairs/barstools.

As you can see we are crazy busy and have been decorating/landscaping fools! I can't find my digital camera or film for my big camera...but I will post pics soon!!!!:)

Meme...thanks Abbie!!!

Ok..so here I go. I'm going to attempt this Meme thing!

*5 THINGS IN MY BAG
*wallet
*neutrogena lipgloss
*sunglasses
*excedrin tension headache
*cellphone

*5 THINGS I'M INTO
*decorating
*Leona Lewis
*Starbucks
*Pirates Cove(awesome game!!)
*My husband!!!;)

*5 THINGS IN MY ROOM
*my amazing bed that I'm totally in love with!
*silk/down bedding in black and white print!
*lots of candles
*tons of romantic pics of me and my hubby
*hope chest that Jeph made me

*5 THINGS I HAVE WANTED TO DO
*visit tuscany
*have kids(hopefully soon)
*a week long trip to the San Juan Islands(which I'm doing for my 6th anniversary)
*build my own house(someday)
*have total health

*5 PEOPLE WHO SHOULD MEME
*Krista...I'm sure you would have good answers
*Steph...you are a good meme kind of person!
*Tiffany..I just want to know you better.
*Anyone from Myspace that reads my blog..I'd love to see this as a Myspace
bulletin.
*Krista..you need to do a Meme!

Busy, busy...and projects!

So things have been really busy at my house. My husband and I have been landscaping..which has really taken over our lives. Plus, we decided since we aren't pregnant yet we would decorate and finish the house. This has also turned into quite the project and I cannot wait to be done. By June 8 we will be completely done except our new leather couches/recliner, and dining room chairs. I'm so excited!!:)I am planning to be done with the furniture aspect no later then the end of July. Just in time for pre season football and fall! I posted a pic of the clock we made...I will post more house pics soon!

The thoughts that plague me...

Why on earth can I feel good about life and be trusting God...basically be having a productive, good attitude, and all around good week. Then I get my period and the world is crumbling around me. I don't see any hope or end in sight to my pain. I tell Jeph no pregnancy this month either...I feel like I'm killing his spirit.
He puts on a brave face and tells me it's ok, it will happen, God's in control..pretty much he says and does all the right things. I can feel his pain. We love our nieces/nephews, friends kids so much and we do our best not to let our pain show..to stay connected and involved but afterwards we always feel sad we don't have our own kids, and we feel a deep, intense, pain that is around us everyday whether out in front or hidden away. I dont' understand, we don't understand...We know God's character to not give us this desire and rip it away. We don't know His timing...and are beginning to wonder if kids will happen for us. We are starting our 6th month of trying and I need prayer, support to get through this difficult phase(please God let this only be a short phase).
As Mothers Day approaches I am hurting more and more then ever before. The partial nursery is becoming a black hole in my house. I keep the door shut most of the time for fear I'll freak out and ball. I love to celebrate my mom(s) on Mothers Day every year in a special way..but this year especially I feel like I'm going to go insane with complete pain, emotional distress.
I need a huge relief, a huge healing, a huge act of grace to change my world out look right now. I need some serious motivation for so many things: house projects, busy schedule(just about to much), time/desire to exercise, the dedication to maintaining relationships(staying out of the black hole of depression.)
If these are the last few months of no kids for me...I want to spend them in a good mood, with a joyful and content heart, and a deeper understanding of myself, God, His purpose in my life, and stronger relationships.
Why? maybe thats not the best question...maybe it should be When? These things will happen and I have to get off the sidelines and be an active player. So although when is up to God...I have to be in the game whole heartedly doing my best in everything.